Diagram Of Car Accident

vampir3 @ 2008-07-29T22: 43:00

And 'I can not love me. I complain of being unable to have intimate relationships with other people when I can not even have a clear dialogue with myself.

I consider myself ugly both inside and outside when I do anything to convince me that no, the others are the wrong ones who do not understand, who are looking for other guys and not me in the end even when I consider myself pretty: how could someone else do it if I'm not the first to do so?

I know from the outset that even if I lose those 10 kilos that I'd lose I would not feel better, so do not do anything to commit to lose them. I can not get some peace with myself and my body never had it and I can not even think that in future I might change my opinion of me.

I have a body that disgusts me and a head that sometimes I would take a bat from one crap I think, do or have. I can not improve myself and I stubborn in thinking that everyone else is the problem for me. I always try a fucking excuse.

know that this is wrong, the fact that ALL the menano "to feel better we should not lose weight or beat the gym, just start to love yourself."

you, thank you, I can not.

I passed and current situations that I have quite a good estimate inhibition and consideration of my persona.Per what should change, in the end I am still stuck at the starting point, maybe I do a few steps forward, then immediately fall back to the box beginning of my journey in less than 10 seconds.

I think I'm better then just a different word and boom, here I am again the condition of false ego-so-I-just-do-no-ha-a-brain where I shut myself away for fear of fucking everything that I've always been.

I would love if someone took away from this stalemate absurd, I'm 18 and I speak as a 12enne sometimes. I would like to help me move, an alarm clock, I would like a shaken but not lifting a finger to get it.

I still call it fear or shyness towards others but in the end it's just a big mess in my head.

I want to be extroverted in a positive way, the sarcasm that has to sell is not to be extroverted, but only balls.

I feel a little better, but I think everything so far. I know I could do something but did not I can not move. I can not take compliments seriously, consider them to be false even if you tell people that I care. I would like someone close, I would like to report that I could finally call with this exact name. I would commit at least a little, I would find some relief.

E 'around like I had a kind of bubble that I can never break, I know that it would take so little to express myself better but also the idea of exposing myself totally scares me.

Why you can not stay a minimum right? Why am I so much trouble? HO